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5 Year Plan

Drinking again, drinking again
Bottles up, I’m in to win
But none of my friends, just me and this bottle
People say that I’m off, say that I’m off
I wouldn’t doubt it, if you were me
Free as a bird, flying over mountains

But, I don’t know where I’m going
Where I’m going, it’s all happening
I’m going, it’s all happening

Hate what i see, hate what i see
I’m over it, I need me some change
Something to feel good
Get me on the level,
No no, no need to cry, no need to cry
You straighten up, you’re such an adult
Pay all your bills, bet you’re a zombie

And you don’t know where you’re going
Where you’re going, it’s all happening
You’re going, it’s all happening
We’re going, it’s all



Figure all this out, I ain’t gona take a charity
Marry me, wish everyone could shake and play the tambourine
Perfect, I know I love you I ain’t tryna let those words slip
Pure bliss, I know that we will stay together, we in cursive
Infatuation, when every single move you make is fascinatin’
Gravitatin’ towards anything that gives a sense of happiness
Activist, love activeness
Sendin’ my love for girls who got some cuts at their wrists
Hope you find what you lookin’ for, I hope you find what you lookin’ for

You take away the pain and I thank you for that
If I ever get the chance, bet I’m paying you back
I’m a be waitin’ for that 

Misery, you represent love, you the epitome
So wish for me, I’ll come out of nowhere, your epiphany
Disconnect, from everybody who don’t understand my vision yet
In a jet, is where my mind is so I light another cigarette
To calm me down, so calm me down
Everybody who can save me now is not around, choppa down
Busy today, but can you tell me how tomorrow sounds?
In between, purgatory ain’t as bad as it would seem to be
Live a dream, that’s so cliche but I can’t tell you what it means to me


It’s a dark science, when your friends start dying
Like how could he go, he was part lion
Life goes on, tears all dried in
Couple years have gone by, by then
Can you please help me find my friend
I’ll give you anything you need multiplied by ten
I heard he moved to a place where the time don’t answer
You don’t need money, all you got is time to spend
Life is short, don’t ever question the length
It’s cool to cry, don’t ever question your strength
I recommend no limits, intricate thought, go ahead just give it a shot
You’ll remember shit you’ve forgot

I hope you’re proud of me
Dude I grew to be
Ingenuity influenced by your eulogy
Going through memories
Like they were movies scenes
I know I’ve been the shit
All these people full of me
Are you made of
I guess I’m fooling myself too
There’s just a bunch of shit
I wish I could tell you, but
This life move fast, I never knew that
Yours wouldn’t have lasted
The dirt hitting your casket, like raindrops
I swear I’ll let you know when the pain stops
For now I need to run to to any place that the train stops
And everybody wanna talk to me about some business shit
Never really listening, couldn’t get real interested
My days get darker, so the haze get sparked up
All this hate, sound the same when my name get brought up
You had a girl, I kinda wish you knocked her up
So I could meet your son and talk you up


I’m posing a question, how many been empty and holding aggression,
Close to depression, open your eyes and just focus a second
Fucking recession might bother my mind’s always moving I’m letting it go
Know that I’m pointing at negative energy, telling me stop
They’re telling me no, don’t
Your aura is something you ain’t even sure of
Explore the core of California, hoes got more to snort up
I’ve had a smorgasbord pornographic thought
That’s a lot, the feeling come after the shock
Praise me I’d rather you not, cause
It’s driving me crazy the fact that you pay to make me into something I love
You come to the club searching for drugs, drunk
Fucking these sluts
God loves me, what if he does, what does it mean?
You’re wasting away doing nothing, you’re fronting
Why ain’t you chasing your dreams?
We wonder ’bout life but none of us willin’ to learn
The money we earn is something to burn
Why won’t they give me a turn-out?
Feed the hungry and clothe the naked
You’re mistaken, the world is cold and it’s lonely, ain’t it?
When ’em high roller homes in Vegas raid them with some home invasions
Contaminating the place with plague, we just saved the day
I waste away in a room drinking from tap
Yahweh put the world in my hands, I’m giving it back

Forfeiting the war, he lays his sword down and walks away
Grabs a 40 from the corner store and begins to contemplate
Dealing with death like he worked in the morgue absorbing the souls
Forgotten, he lost his way
Starring down that barrel, thinking not today
Life is so precious, Lord knows that life is so precious
Fight to the death, till there’s nobody left
You’re holding your breath cause you might get infected
I’m animalistic, instinctively thinking I’m gettin’ ballistic
Be specific, to those in control, we all statistics
Misogynistic with a twisted mind, I’m intertwined
My trigger finger itching, all I kill is time
Initial symptoms of schizophrenic behavior
The mind is like religion, can’t agree on who’s its savior
The newest flavor of superhero, I’m shooting lasers
Except I’m cool invader and blowing up rooms full of strangers
A news anchor, the youth can-relate-er, it’s nature
If you’re a hater, I’ll deal with you later, no thank you
I’m just your neighbor, please don’t do me no favors
Watch me waste away in this room breaking the glass
Yahweh put the world in my hands, I’m giving it back

She ;

I’ve spent the majority of my life trying to quantify how and why I feel the way I feel. In doing so I’ve found that certain sensations cannot be explained and that certain explanations will never be given. It’s these unknowns that drive me through my dark days and allow me to savor the days when the sun soaks my soul. These unknowns keep life interesting. There is something to be said about not understanding a product and being forced to reflect on the means in which it came. There is value in mystery and virtue in being curious enough to try and see.

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